at a loss for colors

2003-10-14T14:37:00.000-07:00

da big T A O: whenever i walk by people go "OMG ITS TAO HES SO AWESOME"
FeltoN FoR LifE: sure
FeltoN FoR LifE: sure sure
da big T A O: and "DA BIG T A O IS COMING WE BETTER GET OUT OF HIS WAY"
FeltoN FoR LifE: yea right
FeltoN FoR LifE: but i guess
FeltoN FoR LifE: i'll admit ur pretty awesome
FeltoN FoR LifE: but that's it!
da big T A O: haha
da big T A O: yeah you're awesome too fei fei
FeltoN FoR LifE: yay!
FeltoN FoR LifE: i'm awesome
da big T A O: well dug
da big T A O: duh*
da big T A O: wow i cant type today

-yay! i'm awesome!!! TAO SAYS I'M AWESOME!! lol...

2003-10-03T14:18:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Me: I love this song!! ::sings along:: one minute you're on top then next you're not...
Cindy: ewwww...

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...good times...

2003-10-02T19:15:00.000-07:00

FeltoN FoR LifE: wutever makes u feel less stupid
afterlaugh128: hey now
FeltoN FoR LifE: this is what dreams are made of!
FeltoN FoR LifE: lol
afterlaugh128: heehehe
FeltoN FoR LifE: tehehehehehehehehehhehe
afterlaugh128: niiiiice
afterlaugh128: hehe
afterlaugh128: so whats fluffin ur pilow?

-silly silly kayla!

FeltoN FoR LifE: i love chester
Driretlan: lol
FeltoN FoR LifE: his voice is so awesome
Driretlan: lol
Driretlan: hes the one with the blond hair right?
FeltoN FoR LifE: yea
Driretlan: yeah hes sweet
FeltoN FoR LifE: uhhh

-AHAHAHAHA! I HAVE PROOF!

urnamesux2: yay im sexy
FeltoN FoR LifE: lol
urnamesux2: i have big boobs
FeltoN FoR LifE: >.<
FeltoN FoR LifE: uhhh
FeltoN FoR LifE: wutever floats ur boat
urnamesux2: sweet

-uhhh...john...?

2003-09-26T16:05:00.000-07:00

FeltoN FoR LifE: EXCUSE ME?!
FeltoN FoR LifE: YOU SUCK
FeltoN FoR LifE: >.<
FeltoN FoR LifE: harry potter look a like
aZnPrYDe 1080: exucse you well i aint gunna say u suck cuz ur pretty awesome

-hehe...erik is pretty darn awesome

2003-09-19T16:28:00.000-07:00

hey guys...i'm so bored! EEK! Coach switched the tennis lesson again...ergh! ::sigh::...five minutes till I have to go...I should leave soon. I hope Bri ish okay! Bri- I hope you're okay! EEK! You better not be not okay! Found a beautiful pic of tom welling...he was yummylicious! hehehehehe...jamie is still fixing my xanga...but i might stick with this...do do de doo...and kayla- i'm just kidding! nothing happened today...early dismissal! FUN STUFF! eh...i have to republish...which would explain why i'm writing this...yep yep yep...

2003-09-18T18:39:00.000-07:00

afterlaugh128: whatever stripes ur zebra

2003-09-18T15:45:00.000-07:00

right...i just lost a post...

FeltoN FoR LifE: if somebody like norah jones wins all the grammies this year
FeltoN FoR LifE: i'm gonna die
FeltoN FoR LifE: i will kill someone
FeltoN FoR LifE: i swear i will
FeltoN FoR LifE: >.<
Driretlan: *hands knife*

-isn't he helpful...? yep...

2003-09-09T17:04:00.000-07:00

Driretlan: hah karmic retribution for something evil u did when u were 4

Auto response from FeltoN FoR LifE: graham is being a big butt...

Driretlan: WHAT I AM NOT
Driretlan: I DIDNT EVEN DO ANYTHING TO DESERVE THAT STATEMENT
FeltoN FoR LifE: lol
FeltoN FoR LifE: watching u expload is fuuuuuuunnnnn

-tehehehehehe...

FeltoN FoR LifE: bboooorrrreeeedddd
gwenyboy: go paint a picture
FeltoN FoR LifE: i have no paint
FeltoN FoR LifE: or brushes
gwenyboy: your FINGERS
gwenyboy: and spit!

-::cough::...

FeltoN FoR LifE: i'm so annoyed
Driretlan: HAHAHA
FeltoN FoR LifE: i've got a piano lesson that i'm so not ready for
Driretlan: SUCKS FOR U
Driretlan: HAHAHAHA
Driretlan: BURN

-is he not being a butt?!

2003-08-28T19:17:00.000-07:00

man...school sucks...ergh! i have a math test...and three quizzes tomorrow...fascinating isn't it?! kill me now...and we have to run half a mile everyday...i'm getting better...but on the first day i almost blacked out! fantastic! and it was during lunch...the lunch lady was giving me all this crap about not having my student id card...i was like, GET OVER IT! ::sigh::...i am so gonna fail this year...::tear::...

2003-08-22T15:52:00.000-07:00

man...i just paid the pizza guy nine bucks in QUARTERS...::sigh::...i shoulda tipped him more...

2003-08-18T16:24:00.000-07:00

bitterchaos 3 3: damn my school's like a gigantic orgy

well then...lol...

and i am still on the quest for the perfect nickname...today's brainstorming:

FeLtOn FoR LiFe: grammy
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: hammy
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: !!!
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: that is so frickin cool!
Aldinach Vampire: no way
Aldinach Vampire: its vampy if it has to be soemthign
Aldinach Vampire: anything at all
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: but i don't like vampy
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: i'll call u my grammy cracker
Aldinach Vampire: and i dont like hammy
Aldinach Vampire: no
Aldinach Vampire: god just call me graham
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: my grammy cracker
Aldinach Vampire: no NO NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: lol
---
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: ur my clicky buddy
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: or do u prefer GRAMMY CRACKER
Aldinach Vampire: no i dont prefer anything
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: GRAMMY CRACKER IT IS

afterlaugh128: im not liking ms. minni
afterlaugh128: shes has 2 personalities!!!!!!

split personality eh...?

2003-08-17T17:59:00.000-07:00

the long and hard process of me choosing a nickname for graham...only shortened...

Aldinach Vampire: yo
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: GRAMMY!
Aldinach Vampire: NO
Aldinach Vampire: DO NOT
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: lol
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: u don't like ur nickname?
Aldinach Vampire: no i dont
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: awww
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: lemme think of another one
Aldinach Vampire: no
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: CRACKER!
Aldinach Vampire: no its perfectly fine
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: i'll call u cracker!
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: get it? graham...cracker!
Aldinach Vampire: omg...ur original
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: that's some tough sarcasm
Aldinach Vampire: lol i was working hard on it
Aldinach Vampire: I HAVE A GLOW
Aldinach Vampire: LOL
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: okay
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: hmmm...graham
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: i'll call u...
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: turkey!
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: wait...pig!
Aldinach Vampire: how bout "....."
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: u get it
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: pig
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: for ham
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: lol
Aldinach Vampire: yeah... be creative
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: pig is creative!
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: and i still like grammy
Aldinach Vampire: ew not grammy
Aldinach Vampire: and pig is dumb
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: lol
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: cracker it is!
Aldinach Vampire: no
Aldinach Vampire: cracker is pointless
Aldinach Vampire: its not grammy
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: fine
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: ummmmmmmmm
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: vampy
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: i'll call u vampy!
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: VAMPY!
Aldinach Vampire: thts good
Aldinach Vampire: the y makes it kinda odd
Aldinach Vampire: but ok
Aldinach Vampire: vampy is it

2003-08-15T15:49:00.001-07:00

Aldinach Vampire: insanity is underrated

when it comes to u...

2003-08-15T15:49:00.000-07:00

Aldinach Vampire: insanity is underrated

i'm sure it is...when it comes to u...

2003-08-08T14:30:00.000-07:00

FeLtOn FoR LiFe: i'm trying to send the picture
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: (picture of tom felton)
el kennio88: omg he's so hot!

SEE! Tom Felton is universally hot!!! ^^

2003-08-08T13:20:00.000-07:00

zAzNsWeEtHeArTz: yea i guess
zAzNsWeEtHeArTz: and everythings screwed up
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: don't u like him?
zAzNsWeEtHeArTz: im not sure!
zAzNsWeEtHeArTz: ergh
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: well
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: i'll leave u to work it out
zAzNsWeEtHeArTz: yea
zAzNsWeEtHeArTz: he said it just now
zAzNsWeEtHeArTz: and i dont like this commitment crap
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: commitment?
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: oh god
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: that is hilarious
zAzNsWeEtHeArTz: this is gay
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: u guys aren't commiting...
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: ur just admitting how u feel
zAzNsWeEtHeArTz: this whole thing is fucked up
zAzNsWeEtHeArTz: maybe
zAzNsWeEtHeArTz: T.T

lol...that's right...commitment is admitting u like each other...instead of getting married or something...right?

2003-08-05T16:23:00.000-07:00

FeLtOn FoR LiFe: that's probably why ur all sensitive
Aldinach Vampire: GRRR
Aldinach Vampire: I AM NOT SENSITIVE
Aldinach Vampire: IM MEAN
Aldinach Vampire: AND DUMB
Aldinach Vampire: AND CRUEL
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: bloggin
Aldinach Vampire: NOOOOOOOOOOo]

Aldinach Vampire: people kill people

yep...that's the hard cold truth...u big fat evil mean butthead...happy now? ^.^

2003-08-05T11:31:00.000-07:00

Never puppy love
Never a crush
Only the regret of not being brave enough

To say what I feel
Never to no one
Not even to fill the holes in my heart

Then It happened
The inevitable
And you helped me come through

Through the darkness
The caverns of Hephaestus
Hell ruled over me
You helped me back to this world

This sane world
All while you gave up your own problems to help me
Selfless soul

Giving up all just to help me
Like that damned Norse tale
A father sacrificing his son for the gods
But it wasn't his time to die
Just like that son
It wasn't time for me to give in

Just like you
I tried to help
Tried my hardest

Hopefully I helped

Than you confessed
As you did, my heart didn't beat
Solemn like a dark forest in the night

But the forest will light up with a match
I found that match
The match of confirmation
Light up the forest

And I confessed
My heart beat with excitation
Could it be true?
Could it be real?
Then I realized it was

And I had fallen in love with you

-oh my gosh...that's so PERFECT!!! i didn't write it though...hehe...

2003-08-05T11:30:00.000-07:00

Aznvietgrl300: one time i had this plan
Aznvietgrl300: in 70 years i was gonna sell my harry potter books on ebay for a ton of money
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: lol
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: that works
Aznvietgrl300: but my friend pointed out that i wouldn't get much since pretty much everyone has them
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: lol
Aznvietgrl300: so since i know that everyone has them
Aznvietgrl300: i can just sneak into their houses and take their books
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: lol
Aznvietgrl300: and sell all of them on ebay

Aznvietgrl300: i'd be idolized by anti-potter groups all over the world

amazing huh? ...so that's wut anti-harry groups scheme...haha...

2003-08-05T10:34:00.000-07:00

FeLtOn FoR LiFe: (picture of tom that says undo me)
bLaKeYeDpEa450: i wouldnt mind undoin a piece of clothin of his:-D

lol...gotta love bri...

nothing really has happened...school starts next tuesday...i got mad at graham yesterday...but i was just kidding...he's mental...but u kno...for someone who drinks alcohol...he's pretty cool...mai tai!!!! or apple martini...hehehe...u kno that commerical...with the lady who's a puppet...and she cuts the strings...? it's for some arthritis medicine...well that creeps me out...that extremely creeps me out...

2003-08-04T15:44:00.000-07:00

FeLtOn FoR LiFe: denial- stage 1
Aldinach Vampire: there is no such thing as denial
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: that is
Aldinach Vampire: because if ur in denial, than u have to accept it first
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: denying there's no such thing as denial is denial
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: yea
Aldinach Vampire: to realize it u must accept it
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: ur denying that ur accepting it
Aldinach Vampire: and to deny it u must realize it
Aldinach Vampire: but uve already accepted it
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: but u don't actually realize ur accepting it
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: by doing that u accept it
Aldinach Vampire: but thats different
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: i mean deny
Aldinach Vampire: thats something totally didfferen
Aldinach Vampire: thats not called denial
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: yes it is

are u confused? man...i just keep posting up convos...hehehehehehehe...

2003-08-04T15:35:00.000-07:00

FeLtOn FoR LiFe: TAO
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: TAO TAO TAO TAO TAO
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: TAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: TAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAO
Zansukaru: me
Zansukaru: what

-now that's the way u act...

2003-08-04T15:29:00.000-07:00

FeLtOn FoR LiFe: okay graham
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: ur officially gay
Aldinach Vampire: im not gay
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: oh that's right
Aldinach Vampire: AND IM NOT A GIRL
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: ur not
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: hmph
Aldinach Vampire: dumb dumb
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: that's u
Aldinach Vampire: im not dumb
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: :-):-):-)
Aldinach Vampire: im gay
Aldinach Vampire: lol
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: oooo

u see! u see! Graham is weird! but awesome...u kno ur awesome graham!!! but i finally got it outta him!!! AHAHAHAHAHAHA...he was kidding though...contrary to popular belief...graham is not gay...i don't think...::thinks::...no...not gay...

FeLtOn FoR LiFe: i'd be nervous
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: cinco ranch is huge
TiNy luvs yooh: im soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited..
TiNy luvs yooh: well it sounds like a ranch
TiNy luvs yooh: heh
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: lol
TiNy luvs yooh: with horses and pigs and stuff

lol...ranch like eh...?

Auto response from FeLtOn FoR LiFe: evil...it looks good on u...

aZnPrYDe 1080: no it doesnt.
aZnPrYDe 1080 signed off at 5:14:31 PM.
aZnPrYDe 1080 signed on at 5:19:50 PM.
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: yes it does
aZnPrYDe 1080: err.
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: maybe not on u...
aZnPrYDe 1080: eeeeeexactly

u kno...i always thought evil looked good on everyone...didn't u? i mean...hehehehehe...i kno it looks good on certain ppl...hehehe...exactly...

went shopping yesterday...fun fun fun...loads of fun...i mean...the day before yesterday...got three pairs of jeans...three shirts...two pairs of shoes...and four pairs of socks!!! yay!!! Aeropostale...Gap...Foley's...Academy...OFFICE DEPOT...YES!!! hehe...TI-83 Silver Edition...I'd still rather have the TI-86...but it's too advanced...hmph...not that the silver isn't cool!

2003-08-01T13:46:00.000-07:00

FeLtOn FoR LiFe: self esteem
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: i have none
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: is the glss half empty or half full
a z n bluetopaz: i have none either
a z n bluetopaz: its too damn big

lol...exactly!

FeLtOn FoR LiFe: REFLECTION
zAzNsWeEtHeArTz: huh?
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: boo and poo
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: lol
zAzNsWeEtHeArTz: oye...
zAzNsWeEtHeArTz: ai caramba
FeLtOn FoR LiFe: oh dear

now that is randomness...

Aldinach Vampire: i am babbling arent i
Aldinach Vampire: thats probably another reason peoploe hate me
Aldinach Vampire: alot of people hate me though
Aldinach Vampire: its pretty cool
Aldinach Vampire: *sigh* now im being ignored
Aldinach Vampire: i also talk to myself
Aldinach Vampire: thats probably another reason
Aldinach Vampire: iv scared alot of kids
Aldinach Vampire: and people
Aldinach Vampire: i can talk to myself all day long
Aldinach Vampire: its pretty cool

you see...graham...has no life...>.<...just kidding graham! just kidding!!! u kno u kick some serious ass!

2003-07-31T12:11:00.000-07:00

publishing

2003-07-31T09:15:00.000-07:00

::sigh::...i'm bored...so i'm taking harry potter polls...i voted for the favorite celebrity...tom felton...and i voted for the best harry potter baddie...draco malfoy...and now i'm voting for the most fanciful harry potter boy...guess who i'm gonna vote for...wait...i'm choosing the house i'd most want to be in...and guess wut that'd be? SLYTHERIN...oh yea...go sly...::sigh::...the pages are missing!!! great...i'm so scared that my brain is frying...and that i'm losing my memory and i am gonna fail eighth grade...and i won't get invited back to the national student leadership conference and GAH...oh no...i'm so darn scared...lol...help me! i should go study...yea...i think i'm gonna go study sometime soon...i haven't done anything since the movie on friday...and my dad has been pmsing...he stopped...thank god...but he got so pissed at the little things for the past week...especially about my tom felton shrine...or scrapbook...lol...but he seems to be taking it rather well...it's not my fault i'm a 13 year old girl born with hormones...geez...ooo...i found a picture of emma and tom rehearsing...well...i saw it...it's around everywhere...anyway...hehehe...she was pointing her wand at tom's throat...and he looked scared...it was so adorable!!! well...i've got nothing else to say...i really want high speed internet...really really badly...and my friend from korea might come next summer! YES...lol...hehehe...

2003-07-26T18:28:00.000-07:00

...i'm back!!!! lol...weird...this comp just disconnected...but yea...i can still write...yea! of course...it'll probably erase this post unless i push stop in time...which i did!!!! YAY! you kno those survey things? i love taking them! lol...anyway...back to spy kids 3D...lol...yes...i'm gonna yak about it...u kno that guy who was on the guardian? the little boy that was there when the show premiered? huh...now that i think about it...wut happpened to that show? anyway...the little...well...teenage boy from there...the one that also guest starred on charmed as one of those child demons gathered up by the ice cream man...yea...he was one of the beta testers...and so were these two other ppl i didn't kno...but one was cute...the other was way too short...probably really young...yea...and did u kno that girdy giggles looks a lot like draco? kinda like the girl version...probably cuz of the hair...interesting eh? speaking of draco...i can't wait till the third one comes out!!! hermione gets to slap draco...emma gets to slap draco...LUCKY biatch...lol...tom is so adorable! lol...especially with spiked hair...hehe...i hope he wears it like that again sometime...but then...by then...i might be over him...great...another disconnection...maybe i should...yay...something happened...lol...computer glitch...maybe...::sigh::...i'm bored...and me and kathryn keep arguing over who loves tom more...that'd be ME...but okay...^.^...i've got nothing else to say...so...l8ter...

---i--heart--tf--

2003-07-26T17:05:00.000-07:00

hey guys! yesterday i went to see spy kids 3D with avani and hooooo boy...that was one...surprising movie...hehe...first of all...u wouldn't believe who was in it...besides george clooney and sylvester stallone...a certain hobbit...if u kno wut i mean...i would hope u do...since lotr is so frickin popular...anyway...there were also loads of cute guys in it! okay...there were only 3...but still...lol...goood enough...kinda short though...but that might have been the screen...well...my dad's kicking me off...man i need my own laptop someday...soon...well...i'll post again soon...l8ter...

2003-07-25T13:19:00.000-07:00

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...stupid stupid stupid computer...it keeps disconnecting...and...i always write this super long post...and it disconnects and erases everything...bah bah bah...and i should go play the piano...since i've got about two hours before the lesson...and my teacher is out for blood...well...i can't go to the movies with alex and bri cuz i can't get a ride...oh well...-.-...maybe i'll go with avani...and we'll go see freaky friday some other time too...doesn't matter...i can go see both of them...i hope...well...i feel kinda...down now...lol...but wut'd u expect? i thought i was going to the movies with my...best...friend...but not anymore...there goes my plans for the day...::sigh::...i feel really down now...oh well...as long as they have fun...right? besides...they haven't done anything together yet...so...yea...well...i'm done brooding now...

i spent most of the morning going through sites and adding myself to fanlistings...veritaserum is a very nice fanlisting...and slytherin pride is down...man...i liked that site...but i think ambition is better...well...at least ambition is working...so i'm in a bunch now...all off to the right...in the column...fun huh? i'm listed in like...ten...yay...or...i signed up for ten...but they're all text links...sunce i don't know how to upload buttons...and stuff...so...yea...do u like the links? i think i'm gonna do the jamie thing...and just put up shoutouts on the side...she's such an inspiration...lol...U ROCK JAMIE! lol...so many ppl are away at that camp...thing...lol...funnnnnnn...i have a serious craving for spy kids 3D...and red, white, and blonde, and full throttle, and movies in general...now that i think about it...i just don't wanna go to piano cuz i'm nervous...nerves...nerves...nerves...gah gah gah...lol...i like threes...reminds me of 3io...man...i'm so bored...maybe i'll go watch hp2 or sumthing...watch my soul mate again...lol...love love love...he's so darn lovable...u kno...after this...i think i'm gonna go change the right column...add in a couple of shoutouts...yay...u kno...today has been very uneventful...and of course...boring...BOOKMARKS...man...my brain is on the fritz...gah...if i forget one more thing...or say something stupid again...i will hurt someone...something...break something...i have a bunch of pent up anger...gah...::breathes in and out::...whew...i like to type! lol...hmmm...does anyone actually draw the fanart? i mean...html and computer animated images are great...but there's nothing like a real...hand-drawn image...yea...lol...

2003-07-24T11:11:00.000-07:00

publishing

2003-07-24T10:20:00.000-07:00

::sigh::...i am so ticked right now...so if u don't like cuss words...i'd leave this blog right now...fair warning...i'm so pissed off that wal-mart doesn't develop pictures if the negative is cut...divided...WHY THE HELL SHOULD THAT FRIGGIN MATTER?! they're all developed in the dark room aren't they? ex-cuse me for making the process easier...i spent a shitload of money getting those pictures done...and now...i can't get the actual pictures...BAH...

you know wut bugs me...? ppl who are "messengers"...u kno...those ppl who talk to one person and then tell someone else everything that person said...especially if it's about that person...can anyone in this word...keep a frickin secret?! ANYONE?! cuz i'd really like to know...::sigh::...now that i've gotten that off my chest...i feel a bit better...not by much though...oh well....moving on...today...at 12...nothing the least bit exciting has happened...i got up at 3...and tossed and turned for about...4 hours...before getting back to sleep at 7:30...isn't that fabulous? that's happened twice already...fabulous...and...eating hurts...so...of course...the obvious choice...i'm gonna stop eating...isn't that great? no sleep...no food...be-au-ti-ful...nothing the least bit interesting has happened since i've gotten back from china...except that i went to see how to deal with bri...and after this...i'm gonna go check up on laptops...i want one really really REALLY badly...even more than i want that cell phone i'm gonna get for christmas...but hey...i worked up the nerve to ask for the cell phone first...::sigh::...oh well...have u seen the apple powerbook? that thing is...huge! and it's aluminum!!! ewwwww...lol...it's just...aluminum...is very prone to scratches and dents...something i don't want in my laptop....

2003-07-22T13:37:00.000-07:00

yay! i'm back in america...where i can actually understand wut the ppl are saying! in china...everyone could tell i was from america...and they all didn't hide their stares...-.-...they're all like..."she doesn't understand me does she?" and i end up screaming "I UNDERSTAND...I FRIGGIN UNDERSTAND" again and again and again...and the endless switching on the airplanes...GAH...talk about painful...60 hours in total on an airplane...at least i got to sit next to a super hot guy on the way back from tokyo to detroit...joyyyyyyyy...he was 5'8'' and hotttttttttt...but not as hot as my tommy!

all right...not only do ppl here not care about cars...they don't care about sanitation...at all...you should check out these bathrooms...it's so gross...they're in the ground...the dirty, filthy ground...and ur supposed to like...put ur hands on the ground and go to the bathroom...like...ew...and...these ppl don't believe in friggin toilet paper!!!! EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW...::shudder::...but china was fun in it's own way...and i had like...50 cousins my own age...well...most of them were older than me...but they were all so totally awesome! in yue yang...6 of us were walking around the river...and then we took guns...lol...it's not wut u think...there were these balloons set up on the side...and we started shooting them...we shot an entire wall down! fun...but i feel kinda bad for the guy in charge...-.-...then...they bought me like...60 glow in the dark sticks and i put the all on...ppl were asking me if they could buy them from me...hehehehehehe...we got 6 ppl in one of those tiny sticky stickers!!! i took like 100 while i was in china...everyone there was obsessed with it...they all like DDR and EZ2DANCER...dancing machines...they're really good too!!! they don't even need to look at the screen not to mention they all are really fluent and they dance...differently...especially since ez2dancer uses ur hands too...so their hands are everywhere and their feet move around...differently...i'm surprised they don't use their hands on the ground too...some do use their feet to dance for their hands though...it looks really awesome...fun fun fun!

i need to go see POTC...i did get to see how to deal with bri yesterday...fun...it was very loving and trent ford is so cute! but they made out so many times in the movie it was...almost disgusting...it was a cute story though...really really really adorable!!!! such a sweet love story...but i can't believe he died...he was so cute too...::sigh::...at least it ended nicely...i still wanna see legally blonde 2 and full throttle...and i still think that dumb and dumberer is the stupidest movie ever...from justin to kelly was really gay too...next spring is gonna have so many movies i wanna see...artemis fowl was supposed to come out then...::tear::...can u believe that they want devon murray to play artemis? ::shudder::...so...how're u guys? having a good summer? i would hope so...i can't believe summer is almost over... only three weeks...ooooonnnnnnlllllllyyyyyyyy three weeks...::sigh::...i'm so nervous about midterms and finals...oh god...midterms and finals...gAHHHHHHH...wut am i gonna do? wut if i fail? WUT IF I FAIL?! GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! well...glad i got that out...

2003-07-03T06:17:00.000-07:00

whew...i'm in china now and i finally get to post...there's so much to say i dunno where to start...first...i had to get up at 5 in the morning on june 7th to go to the airport...and then i was there for 30 hours...18 hours on an airplane...and the other 12 switching airplanes and airports and stuff...IT WAS PURE TORTURE...i'm serious...dreadful...and when i get there...it was okay...i don't think the ppl here like mattresses...lol...good for your back i suppose...but the bathrooms are gross and computers are sparse...but everyone has a cell phone...and everything is so cool! i mean...everything is in chinese...lol...well...that's a given...but i mean...i've seen oreo, chips ahoy, pepsi, coke, extra, wrigleys, sprite, 7up, and everything translated and it makes me giddy!!!!!!!!!! lol...

people here also aren't afraid of cars...and cars aren't afraid of ppl...i mean...oh my god...if you don't move outta the way...the car will run u over...it doesn't stop...all it does is honk...it's scary!!!!!!! every five seconds someone honks...it's annoying...and frightening...i mean...lord...i was walking across the street and i had to sprint the last few yards cuz someone on a motorcycle almost ran me over...-.-...it was not the least bit exciting...

all my relatives exclaim over how tall i am and how "well-built" i am...seriously...everyone here is so frank...they see them and they're like...wow, you've gained weight! look at how fat you are! nobody's said that so far but it's so...mean...lol...and everyone giving me stuff...money, clothes, cds, and i got sunglasses too! They're soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cute!!! i'm like...in love with them...they're not that wide and they're a redish pink and a cross between the newer design of frameless...and the old design of with a frame...lol...funky...but adorable! This is the second time i've gotten on a computer...the first time i didn't post cuz i didn't think there was anything to post but now...i'm bursting with info and i can't even remember it all...lol...great...i just got off another airplane flight and i'm at my grandparent's from my dad's family's side's house...they have a nice house...very cute...with a comp and a piano and everything...it's great! but no one is online...which isn't great...i'm kinda tired now and there's nothing else that i can think of to write...i mean...i could talk all day about my other days but nothing that exciting happened...i saved a lot of money though...i think we've spend about 5 bucks on food from street vendors...and we've gotten like 10 bags full...but not everything is as cheap as i thought it'd be...i mean...jewelry and clothes and perfume are the same as usual...but book and cds and stuff are super cheap...but the cd's are all funky...they're really weird...i got some dvds that i sorta wanted but didn't really want that bad cuz the ones here are really weird...i got harry potter in chinese so me and kayla can watch...i love saying harry potter in chinese...hehe...it's so funny!! all the do is change it so it sounds similar and it sounds so cool! i tried translating all this english stuff to chinese but it just sounds weird when i try...::sigh::...l8ter

2003-06-26T10:29:00.000-07:00

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...geez...i swear...blogger did the exact same thing that xanga did to me...i wrote a really long entry...and THEY DIDN'T FRIGGIN' PUBLISH IT...::spasm::...i am so pissed off right now it is not even funny...::breathe in::...::breathe out::...and yesterday was absolutely dreadful! We lost our first swim meet, and it was the last swim meet of the season; I can't believe we lost! It was so unfair that they didn't do anything about the cheating. This is the second year we've lost the championship because the other team was cheating, first thornwood, now them...NO FAIR! We even had proof they were cheating, I mean, how was it that every single time one of our swimmers received a good place, they were disqualified? They didn't even have a valid reason! Grrrrrrrrrrr...they disqualified someone for making a bad turn, someone for touching the wall in backstroke, and someone for not touching the wall in backstroke! There is no such thing as a bad turn, just a wrong one, of course you can touch the wall in backstroke...u don't have to do a backstroke flip turn, and if six ppl saw the person touch the wall in backstroke on the im...and someone had it on videotape, I'm pretty sure that was a crappy call...i'm sure the ref agrees after about 5 ppl went up to her and started screaming in her face...hehe...but she deserved it...two years...we lost that giant trophy...again...::tear::...twice because of cheating...::sigh::...but i guess life is unfair like that...

I ordered my first pizza online! And I almost ordered about 100 buffalo wings...lol...whoops...but i figured the 78 bucks was wrong...lol...i'm so excited!!!! i get to go to china tomorrow! 5 am in the morning...but i love to ride airplanes...i just hope i don't ride to my death...or die while i'm in china...wut if there's another attack?! wut if i die of sars?! I'm too young! ::tear::...i'm so nervous now...i haven't even packed...lol..that's three weeks in china...a lot of luggage...i just hope i make it there in tact and with all my luggage...not lost...but you never know...life is pretty crappy as it is right about now...dreadful really...if they lose my luggage...i will be very very VERY angry...I hope i live through this vacation...hehe...in china...we're gonna be lugging around about 7 pieces of luggage....maybe 8...every day...and we don't stay anywhere for more than three days...it's off to uncles...the aunts...the grandparents...then great grandparents...then more aunts...more grandparents...cousins...more uncles...and we bought so much stuff to give to them...because my parent's are so sure that they're gonna buy me stuff too...i dunno...i'm not sure if they even kno i exist...lol...my mom said they're probably just gonna give me cash cuz they don't kno wut i want...lol...cash works for me...but i like things that come from the heart...lol...store bought things that come from the heart...haha...

Today my bro is staying home so i have to watch him...but that means i get out of the 5 hours of studying i regularly do! EXCITING! lol...anything beats sitting there with a large pile of workbooks doing...work...i'm still in my pj's and a cami...hehe...i should change...my hair is a mess too...i better bring my straightening iron to china...joy joy joy....lol...i think he's watching thomas the tank engine...back to my bro...he's so annoying...but awesome too! Hehe...he can sit there and watch tv for the longest time it is seriously unhealthy...i mean...he watched harry potter and the chamber of secrets like 4 times in 2 days...that's one long movie...i just stayed around for the draco scenes...lol...especially the book store, the mandrake, and the scene where he goes, "read? I didn't kno you could read..." HAHAHA...lol...i love the way he says it...and he always does that funky eyebrow move which is so funny! Gotta love draco...and tom...hehe...

2003-06-25T14:29:00.000-07:00

I am so bored...my eye is half red..and i have to go to a swim meet...that's right...it's half red...top half is normal...bottom half is pink...FANTASTIC...i am gonna hurt someone...::sigh::...so much sunscreen...::sigh::...too much sunscreen...i feel oily...ew...and now i have to go to the swim meet...i hope my mom remembers to bring the camera so i atually have pictures to upload for my internet picture book...fun fun fun! lol...l8ter...

2003-06-24T16:22:00.000-07:00

republishing...cuz nobody can see the new one without me republishing...fabulous...

2003-06-12T15:53:00.000-07:00

My latest online diary...very cute! Hehe...i wonder if anyone is even gonna come here...well...let's get the basics down before we go on to talk about my life...i like to read...(shut it all u non-readers)...i am pretty straightforward...i get edgy...but only with reason...XD...i love many things...artemis fowl...tom felton...::cough::...

Today was fascinating...ha...swim practice is so tiring...i swear...after practice...i could barely move...we ran...very far, which wasn't that bad...but then we just...swam and swam and swam...drill after drill after drill...when i got out of the pool...i felt better actually...hehe...yesterday was misery...probably from all those lunges...it seriously hurts to sneeze...i couldn't sit up without going off to the side...::sigh::...things are better now though...still in pain...but better...^.^...

I also found out that felton...after my love...actually means house in a town...or over a hill...or sumthing along the lines of that...and that's it's first name...it's english...but if u knew tom felton...that'd be a duh...since he's british...i guess that i'm just a tad obsessed with him...hehe...

Thank the lords it's summer...and now i have tennis lessons...well...not now...but soon...assuming i can still go since the coach switched times and places on me...really convenient...michelle and faye are very...inspirational...^^...lol...i'm obsessed with quotes...i have so many...so so many...they're so adorable...and song lyrics...awesome too! yea...i'll post later...